Hiiiiiiiiiii. Your girl is back and done with her second year in uni. Big purrrrr! Happy new month first of all.❤️
You are literally the bestttt. You’ve been with me on this space for like three months now and I’m so grateful for you. Yea, you reading rn!
200 level, the best level so far. It was so eventful! I started 200 level on the 5th of October, 2021 and it ended on the 10th of June, 2022.
I’m currently on a chair while having my hair pulled in different directions cause this summer must summer, 😭. I got home yesterday and it’s still feeling amazing. God is so faithful guysss. I’m just overwhelmed with joy for some reason and I know God’s behind it.
Soo, today’s gisttt, choke! May was tough and I was loose guarding. My journey of getting closer to God started very well in May, I joined the protocol unit in Abuad Chapel, I became a member of the Word House Fellowship (p.s~ if you’re in abuad, you’re invited to this fellowship once school resumes) and I spoke in tongues. Naa, May was fireeee!
For those of you that know me physically, I use glasses. It is recommended, prescription is -5.25 ( and I saw somewhere that someone with a -2 vision is termed “legally blind” so LMAO.)
I started using glasses when I was 8 years old in primary 4. Growing up, I had accepted wearing glasses as a part of me. Whenever people prayed for me to stop using glasses, I would always think to myself- “It won’t work e”.
Getting closer to God and finally realizing that He can do anything, I mean literally anything, I realized that one of my weaknesses was not having faith.
I had a talk with one of my friends (Wisdom) and he mentioned something about how he stopped using glasses and the thought popped into my head. I have always wanted to stop using glasses. Let me explain what I mean, whenever there was an event going on that required me to put makeup on, or when I went swimming with my siblings when I was younger, I always wanted to stop using glasses at those particular times.
The thought of not using glasses again grew stronger everyday and I began to have little faith that God will do it. Wisdom told me to pick a bible verse relating to my “issue” and meditate on it. I picked 2 Kings 20:5~
I resonated with this verse cause the amount of prayers on this issue has been a lot. The following week, I saw something on a friend’s status about “The Daniel’s Fast”. I couldn’t do the exact Daniel’s fast so, I decided to just do the normal fast for the same period of time (with the aim of achieving what I was hoping for, my healing). I fasted for three or four days and either on the 4th or 5th day, I had a test that morning and I felt hungry. I had been eyeing the bread I bought from the day before. I gave into temptation and ate it. Did Tamilore fast again after that??
Well, you guessed right! That was the end of my fast😂😂. I ate at the normal time every other day. The day the Daniel’s fast ended, my friend (the one who posted about it) shared her testimonies on her status and I was happy for her but I felt disappointed at myself.
Fast forward to evening, an unknown number called me and I figured it was Wisdom. He told me he was in a prayer program and he told me to take my glasses off so we could pray and join faith. Oh, did I mention that during that period where I stopped fasting, I also drifted from God? I even stopped reading my Bible and devotional. I no know say na setup 😂😂.
He started praying for me and I couldn’t even pray tbh. I found myself crying cause 1+1 was already mathing in my brain. I started to blame myself. I felt like if I had probably finished my fast and Wisdom had called when he did, I might have received my healing. Thennn, I started to blame God for not making my willpower stronger than it was. The rest of the day was sha weird for me. I was quiet and down.
The next day was Saturday, Protocol Unit in church had our love feast and I went. Entering the church, I burst into tears🤣. I went to toilet to cry and I felt a bit better. My best friend called me and we spoke about how I was feeling. I said something along the lines of “… I believe God does miracles but I feel He’s not ready for me”. Ngl, when I said that my heart sank deep into my chest.
For a week or so, I took a break from anything relating to God and all. We called it “spiritual space”. I went to church the next Sunday and it felt niceee. It felt like God told me to calm down. I felt at peace with myself.
Sooooo, brothers and sisterssss, the moral of this story is God is sovereign. He’s still the same person as He was at the beginning of existence. He performs miracles and wonders and that will never change and that’s facts regardless of whether He provides what we want or not. Those little challenges we face from time to time, they’re good for us. We don’t like to face challenges but, trust me, it’s better than staying or remaining in your comfort zone. As ironic as it may sound, I’m still using glasses but my faith in God has doubled since that time. I didn’t get the miracle I wanted but God made my faith (one of my biggest weaknesses) stronger. Hence, rejoice when you face trouble, cause it’s for a greater good at the end.
I’m leaving y’all today with this picture I found on Pinterest:
Yeahhhh, so thank you for reading thisssss. I’m extremely grateful 🥺❤️. I want you to know that you’re in that storm because Jesus is in your boat. So, stay strong and have faith even when you’re drowning! Love youuuu forever!
P.s~ I’d have dropped a playlist but CBN and Apple (including some other foreign sites) are keeping beef 😡.
Wonderful ❤️
I don’t know why I just read this after so long but maybe God had a plan 😂I cried while reading this write up especially at the part where you drifted from God because I can relate so much😭😂You are so blessed Tami and I pray God strengthens you❤️